Avery is now ten weeks old. Ten. Weeks. I can't even believe it; where did the time go? While I am so excited she's getting so big and learning new things, I can't help but feel sad. It also means that in two weeks, I will be returning to work. Although this new role of motherhood has been mindblowingly (so not a word but go with it) amazing in so many ways, I do miss the part of me that is an adult contributing to society. I love being an OT and I love my job. But now I also love being a mom and I love my time that I have had with my daughter. Now I will have the new title of "working mom" and it's a bittersweet feeling. Avery is growing so fast it's as if I can't keep up. She amazes me every day and I love watching her learn new things. For example, we have been reading to her for quite some time now. She had begun to look at the pictures on the pages, but today for the first time she grabbed onto the pages of the book and was moving them back and forth (and putting them in her mouth of course). She is also starting to notice Memphis more. She has always been very tolerant of Memphis smelling and kissing her. But now she will look at her and smile (especially when she gives her kisses). Little things like that make me proud of Avery and these are the moments that I will miss the most. I understand I will have weekends and week nights with her, but any working mom knows that it isn't the same. Though I haven't started to work yet, I already know that. I am thankful and lucky that Avery will have both of her grandmothers to care for her during the week. She will bond with them in ways she would never be able to if I was a stay at home mom. It's so good for her. It's good for me too. These last couple of weeks I'm going to soak it all in and love every moment and for now that's all I need.
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